2014-12-04

Me and B.A.P

It was a chilly 4.50 am on Friday, November 28 when I walked out of my dorm in a rush to go to the meeting spot in my campus. My student body organization was going to hold a three days weekend camp as a part of new member inauguration process and I, as one of the disciplinary committee member, was already running late as we were supposed to arrive way earlier before anyone else. I half-ran through the narrow alleys that led from my dorm to the campus while checking my phone just in case somebody texted. On that fateful morning, though, my dearest left thumb decided to slip so instead of pressing WhatsApp, I accidentally tapped on Twitter. Immediately, a JPopAsia headline caught my attention.
B.A.P filed a lawsuit against TS Entertainment.
In an instant I stopped in my track, almost dropping my bag and unconsciously swore under my breath, not caring if a man who was working nearby stared at me weirdly. To say that I was shocked would be an understatement. That very moment, I felt my brain emptying itself for a split second, nothing but the headline in my mind.
What happened.
Arriving at the meeting spot, I saw that only a few of my friends were already there. It was a chance for me to finally sit down, calm myself and read the full article.
Though, even after reading the whole article from JPopAsia and the one from Allkpop, I still couldn't understand what was happening.
One by one my friends came, and there were some who also liked KPop (though none of them were fans of B.A.P, they all liked different groups). Nobody dared to talk about the news. Okay, one person actually mentioned it to me, but she didn't say any words afterwards.
That's why, it didn't really bother me for the rest of the camp.
The truth dawned on me three days later, as I was lying in my bed after returning home, B.A.P's songs blaring from my headphones. They filed a lawsuit. They had a problem. They have been mistreated.
B.A.P is not alright. They were never alright.
It scared me quite a bit, the possibilities of what might happen to them in the future. It wasn't only about a group, but it was about the lives of six young men. They have done so much, yet this still happened.
Ironically enough, after this whole ordeal, I realized how glad I was to get to know them. Before this, I tend to hide the fact that I was a B.A.P fan, but now I'm really proud to stay that I had been there with them. That I am still there. The only fact that stung me a bit was that my best friend, who previously proclaimed herself as a BABY, who introduced me to B.A.P and was the only person I could freely fangirl with, was reacting so lightly to this matter. She simply said 'Oh well. I guess I no longer care. Maybe this is the chance for me to finally have a normal life.'
How could she say that, was something that I could never fathom.

I'm sorry for ranting here but I really need to let out my thoughts T.T this had been bugging me for days and I couldn't hold back any longer. What I wanted to say is that even though B.A.P is going through all of this, I would still be there. They had helped me during hard times, and this time, it's my turn to help them. Although I couldn't do anything. Although I haven't done anything for them. But their music had touched a lot of people, they had helped thousands of people around the world without even knowing. This is my token of appreciation for one of the best groups there is in the world.

#ForeverwithBAP